So, wow
This has been a while to say the least...
I guess I neglected this site just the way I neglected my old self. The one that desperately wished to do things with life . Now when Im that person, only quite off of my original thought, I tend to forget the darkness of my grade 9 and even that bit of grade 10.
Now I dress for success or at least I look better. I make out with some when an opportunity knocks on the goddamn door or when a pure bottle of vodka sits on my lap. The vodka is singing to me almost chanting motionless sensations fearless like a mountaintop.
Once you hit the top you feel fearless and alive and animal like, as if you were a sex machine ready to control the universe with orgasmic powers and then you drown back to earth, to the pit of the garbage and the bottom of it all and the smell is up your nose and the shit is up your ass and you wish you never went that high so you would have never hit that low.
But thats the thing with life, you need to be optimistic or otherwise find a pill to do that for you. Wink. Just kidding you dont need pills. wink.
M
hope to show more signs of existence
